Life hasn't exactly been easy lately; outside of work I am studying for a digital marketing diploma and - in true Sarah style- I let the stress of one little assignment dominate my life which soon became a constant raincloud hanging above my head. It rained and rained.... and rained, but with a great support network and my own perseverance, the clouds began to part to reveal a glimmer of light and I managed to submit an assignment that I couldn't be more proud of.
My boyfriend and I have recently broken up after two years together, and combined with the assignment and general self confidence issues, I've been feeling pretty low in myself. There, I've said it. I've been down in the dumps for a while and writing, my complete passion, has taken a backseat.
But this is not a pity party, this is the day - Tuesday 31st March - where I vow to be happy.
In many ways I am happy- my career in marketing is going so, so well :) I'm copywriting, doing graphic design and constantly learning- to be in a job that I love and can see myself growing in is something pretty special. I am also blessed by the most wonderful family and friends who are always there for me and have given me such strength and love that I can only hope I will, in time, give back to them when they are in times of need and difficulty.
I've also got a lot to look forward to in the next few weeks. Tomorrow I'm meeting up with the girls for a potential shopping/cinema trip which will undoubtedly result in gossiping, tales from their uni experiences and a lot of fun. My best friend Chelsea and I are hopefully spending the day in London on Thursday where we'll be typical tourists and shop til we drop on Oxford Street. I realise that shopping is becoming a recurring theme here but retail therapy is the best kind of therapy for me haha. Oh, which reminds me that I have found the most amazing salon ever called Phi-Nix that is about 10 minutes away from me and I love it in there. In the last month, I've had my first experiences of HD Brows and silk nails (like acrylics but they do less damage to your actual nails) and Phi-Nix has fast become my little retreat where I can be pampered and relax.
But - even more exciting than any of that.... on Friday 17th April I will be 19 years old- eeeek! I am so excited for my birthday! Granted I will be working, but my family and I are going out in the evening to a Thai restaurant in Harbourne called Sabai Sabai which sounds AMAZING. I've already read the menu about five times and I am itching to try their duck pancakes with barbecue sauce- mmmmmmmmmm.
I guess, what I'm trying to say in this horrifyingly disjointed post lacking the usual metaphors and flowery language is that yes, I've had a tough time recently, but that's over. Now is the time for me to be happy, relaxed and to believe in myself. Now is the time to accept what has happened, move on and be the best version of me that I can. As my Auntie Sarah recently told me: "People become quite remarkable when they start thinking that they can do things."